This Is All An Illusion

Am I discouraged? No. Disheartened? No. One day it will be worth it somehow. In a way it already has been because I will never regret going with my heart...NEVER. Logic may save pain....sometimes...but logic can be the great life denyer...and I want to feel it ALL...I do not want a dead life, rather one full of these extremes. This is how i begin to understand...to understand myself, and to have the reality of life enforced into my little brain...for THIS IS ALL AN ILLUSION...but all this is only elusive until we realize that what we seek has been inside of us all alongl.......